I wanted to say a couple more words about our failed match. We took a couple of days off and went on a road trip to Southern California. It was great that we did this and helped us to come over our sadness. We both (my husband and I) are doing better now. We still miss our baby girl but we are also very happy that we had her for a short time in our life. She showed us that we are ready to be parents and that it is so easy to fall in love with such a tiny, beautiful and innocent baby.
Before we had her I was very nervous about changing diapers, feeding her, rocking her back to sleep but we felt that it is not hard at all and that we loved staying up with her at night and watching her every second. Every moment was wonderful and she taught us a very special kind of love!
I wanted to share a photo of her with you and bring this to some kind of closure! Unfortunately I never got to take a photo without her hat because she had lots of black hair.
We wish her a very happy life and we know that we might never see her again but she will always be our "first child".